I was driving down Rt.9 in Tuckerton, taking my kids to school the other morning and it hit me. I know something that cancer can’t take away from me, and I haven’t even had it..yet. I always think about my one boudoir shoot I did with a breast cancer survivor, Niki. It just stays on my mind. It stays on my mind because I can’t get the smile on her face out of my head. When she came to me I knew that cancer had stripped her of everything woman- Everything natural- It took her hair, her eye lashes, her eyebrows, her breasts, her full blown feeling of a woman, one who could at one time- reproduce and add to our ever growing community- Cancer had taken it all away from her. It had sucked the life out of her, caused her to become an instant warrior, an instant fighter. I had seen her little Facebook profile picture when she wrote to me asking about my sessions. A Cute face, short hair cut, glasses. If I hadn’t known what she had gone thru I may never have known. I definitely wouldn’t have known by just looking at her. I would have just thought, oh this lucky little b word- she can rock a short hair style so well and I’m so jealous! lol But I did know.
I secretly get a little nervous before each shoot. I don’t want to treat anyone as if they are a ‘poor me’ or I don’t want to be too persuasive when they are super nervous or scared. I have to put on a different role with each person so that I make them feel super comfortable with me, I mean come on, I am going to be helping them choose panties to go with those awesome bras they’re bringing to me. We get pretty deep, pretty quick. ha ha. So it’s my job to do it right, and to do it right the first time.
She came in to my studio and when I say she rocked this boudoir shoot like a frigen professional model, I mean it. Holy crap- Cancer what? Cancer who? You can’t shit on our boudoir shoot today you filthy animal-
So what cant cancer take away from me??? It cant take away the satisfaction I feel when I see these women smile, the satisfaction I feel when I see the courage in their eyes or the strength in their poses. It cant take away the ‘everything’ I feel with these women and that makes me proud to be doing what I love-
Niki- thank you! From the bottom of my heart, thank you- You possess an amount of courage that I thought I had but I guess until I have been thru what you have, I don’t have anything on you! I am so proud of you for being courageous and coming to me to feel like a woman again- You are much more then just a woman, a mother, a daughter, a sister or an aunt, a lover or a best friend to someone. You are an inspiration to everyone! I can only hope I touched you a percentage of how you touched me- #cancer #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #cancerninja #screwyoucancer #femfatphoto #femmefatalephotography #boudoir